I’m tired of getting feelings inside me that I have difficulty processing. I’m tired of questioning all actions from someone or lack of actions. I’m tired of feeling as though no one loves me enough to put me first. I’m tired of feeling like I want to cry all the time. I’m tired of being blamed for things that I shouldn’t be blamed for. I’m tired of seeing my kids treated worse than strangers. I’m tired of making efforts to please others. I’m tired of being told we have no money yet was willing to spend $30,000 for something we didn’t agree to. I’m tired of being around people who don’t think I have any valuable traits. I’m tired of feeling second rate. I’m tired of no one telling me that I’m pretty. I’m tired of no one thinking I’m sexy. I’m tired of making the effort. I’m tired of not feeling loved. I’m tired of getting old. I’m tired of looking old. I’m tired of not having a job.

I’m just plain tired. Do I want this life?

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